i'm so over you
i'm so over you and i think that's all that matters for now
i'm so over you and i think that's all that matters for now
i never expected that the intrams would be fun. well it really was fun. although i was hanging out with people i least expected i found out that there are lots to discover and enjoy within those five days. university of cebu for me is like a totally new environment and i really had no idea how it would be like. i never had to worry about rumbles and stuff cuz the security was tight. it was also my first time to join the badminton and it's quite funny coz there were only two members in the women's team. we didn't win though but i really liked the experience. i hope my partner, emz, enjoyed it, too. well the volleyball match was grand! my classmates were really good. it was a good thing i brought my cam during the finals coz it was my chance to take lots and lots of pictures. it was really fun because photography is my passion. i'm not that good though but i'm doing it the old school way. i have this urge to create photos without using expensive programs. simple editing is all i want. it kinda challenges me too. anyway, yeah. the intrams. well, i think you can see it naman in the pictures how much i enjoyed it. i know i missed alot of friends during the intrams. yeah, there were a couple of guys whom i expected and they were never there. i was disappointed but it's okay cuz i realized that i got other friends who were really fun to be with. oh let me correct that.. they ARE fun to be with! :) i think it's starting to drag so i gotta end my conversation here. by the way, i would like to congratulate the engineering volleyball team again... hehe... champion sila. lingaw jud!
ahh... i'm just glad to be alive... i got new friends and they're really nice... and then.... wala lang boring ra diay gihapon nga kinabuhi... hehe...
Haha kinsa na si hl20? si loyax? si walter? sa una ra unta ni nako gi sulat but maybe i was meant to post this much later. . . i couldn't declare things too soon and now. . .my friends, especially those who are really close to me. . . be happy for me. i know you all are happy for me. i finally found the person whom i trust. i am no longer afraid of pouring out my love and i know it's worth doing so. kabalo mu how hard it was for me to move along while i was in agony sa ako ex. di ba? all of my friends wanted me to find someone who really REALLY loves me. i admit i cried when cherry told me that GOD answered her prayer for me. i realized how much my friends wanted me to be happy. i know they can see the sacrifices i made in the previous relationship and now they're all happy cuz finally i found someone who DESERVES more. i'm so touched jud cuz i really found a friend. it's just so nice to know that walter is a great friend and i know nga nice jud kaayo to start out as friends. pero karon bai na lipay jud ko cuz i was able to evaluate my feelings. i realized that i love him when i discovered that the kilig factor was gone. i really waited for it to go away and found out that i really love him. so mao na toh ang go signal. yes guys i know happy jud mo cuz naa na koy boyfriend and daghan sa inyo nakita ninyo ang iya sincerity. he's the exact opposite sa ako ex di ba? naa sa iya ako gnahan nga physical features: cubby, nice eyes, taas ilong. dayon he's a man. a real MAN and not just a boy di ba! nakita nako sa iya ang RESPECT, care and love. and most importantly, he respects and keeps a special relationship with KUYA JES, whom i call my BEST FRIEND, JESUS. i know walter is not perfect and he isn't exactly the "man of my dreams" but i realized nga much much better pa c walter sa ako m.o.m.d. ga ilusyon ra ko sauna. pasensya na if sayo and dali ra kaayo ko nka say ani tanan. happy lang jud ko and i thank God na happen ni sa ako. di ko ni sayangon nga opportunity. wa lang man pud mo nahibalo gi unsa ni walter ug pukaw toh ang gaga sa una nga kulang sa pakog. karon na taohan na toh nga bae ug malipayon na kaayo siya karon. pasnxai na ang malipayon ninyo nga amiga ha. . . kahibalo na baya mo ani bayhana.
i admit i DID fall in love with that so so very ungrateful jerk. sagdi lang. dili na toh ma usab. siya ang worst example sa uyab ug ambot pila pa ang ma ilad niya adto despite sa iyang hitsura {pweragabs} aahhahaha... basin nag tuo ka nga hisurahan na kaayo ka. . . listen to what my friends has to say about you. gi pangga tika ug imo na gi take for granted. am i too kind? tinuod jud diay ba nga dili na uso ang magbinuotan karon panahona. so ? ? paki nako kung naive ko ug datting. datting ra bitaw na. in the end sa ako ra man na mu reflect ang ako mga binuhatan. ug sa iyaha pud animal siya mu backfire ra na. i couldn't care less na jud. last ko na ni nga aligotgot bahin sa iyaha. . . maski naa pa care na bilin nako para niya pero kahibalo ko nga ka luoy ra ni. na luoy ra ko niya ke maski unsaon nako ug binuotan niya wa pa xa natuto. gahi kunohay xa astig and cool kaayo xa kung astig xa. . . ma luoy lang ko niya ke siya ang type sa tao nga dili respetohon sa uban tao in the future. if di siya mag change sa iya ways gamiton ra pud jud na siya puhon. . . ampo na lang ko nga mag change na siya soon. and mahinumdoman unta niya tanan pahabilin nako sa iya bahala na ug di niya mainumdoman nga ako ang nag tell sa iyaha.
it was all too easy for me to say and think that there are people falling stupidly in-love with the wrong person. i thought it just has to do with the mind. i used to wonder why almost every guy would want to be sassy girl's moongyu or whatever his name is... and why beautiful actresses choose to stay and become mistresses of guys such as vic sotto, joey marquez and erap estrada... no offense but tanawa nalang gud na mga dagwaya na! dili bagay. stupid. i used to wonder why catherine zeta jones had to leave tom hanks for a married man sa terminal. i wonder why people choose to make those kind of movies and encourage viewers to fall for the wrong person... i used to say "hai, pastilan!" when i thought that falling in love is all in the mind. but i guess i see myself now eating up my own words. i thought that this is nothing new to me... like duh! i've been to alot of relationships before. my heart was so-called broken more than twice, thrice... four times? five times? i don't know. i thought i was calloused na... but now i see that ni dulot jud beyond sa kubal. "hay, pastilan"...
my friends keep on telling me "find another" "someone's waiting there for you... kulang nalang kissan ka niya para ma babae na jud ka" "find someone your age...someone mature" "you're a spoiler... sinasanay mo xa kasi!" everyone says the same thing but i don't know... i keep falling back to you. i choose to stay in this relationship. i know. contrary to what people mostly believe in, love is a choice.... i believe that love is a choice. and i chose to love you. that's why i'm still here coping with every single day, trying to keep up with your ever changing mind. it's draining... really... but i know why i choose to hold on... buot ta huna hunaon i used to suspect that there's got to be a reason behind every action. there's a reason why people fall... and a reason why they choose not to learn from every fall... well, i guess that very reason is the only thing i have to keep this going.
what the hell am i doing? unsa ni ang blog? haha... uhm... nganu ga think ko niya?
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